I have had a returning topic in my dreams for years. Not too often comes up but I am more and more curious about it.
The topic is that I am going to an exam. I have not prepared for it. I am also late. I feel bad.
(I was attending the university and finished it successfully long years ago. For about 10 years I have not studied anything in a course/school so I have not had any exams. I have not worked for 8 years approx. so not even work interviews...)
In these dreams I am on my way to my exam and I am normally late (maybe always).
Last night was the first time that I did arrive there. It seemed to be like a maths exam but at least a subject with calculations.
I was late. Everyone else was already there, sitting and looking at their papers. I went to a desk and chair, and looked into the questions. The exam questionnaire was like a book with many pages. I read the first question and I thought it is quite an easy one but I did not know the answer.
(I saw the exact numbers and question and it was not like maths in our life, it was interesting... I asked someone around me, she told me the answer and it did not sound logical at all but I knew that was the good answer)
I felt bad because I should be one of the clever ones - even: I am clever - and I do not know the answers... (that was in the dream, but in my life I was always good enough in learning, too)
I felt confused and I thought why I am here if I can not write anything on the papers... So I was thinking about leaving.
I was even talking loudly to the person sitting next to me.
I was upset that we had X time for dealing with the exam and I said loudly: I can not even read the whole book during this time.
I thought, I'd ask you guys, if you have any good idea about this.
I was thinking some time earlier, if it can mean that I need to study something in my life to be prepared or just be clever (or more clever in certain area)... Or am I trying to question my own skills in any way?
Thank you for your input.
Lots of love and light,